So yesterday was horrible, so I'm not even going to update about it. It was bad. really bad. let's just leave it at that.
But today, this morning was like a mini binge, but hopefully I'll be able to avoid food the rest of the day. I'm not really that hungry, so I should be fine.
But I need to explain my situation. It's not bad, but I'd be in a lot of trouble if I told my boyfriend about this.
I went over to bestfriends house and we did hookah, whatever no problem there. But then we proceeded to get on chat roulette. If you're not familiar with this site, it's a site where you are randomly connected with a stranger. And it requires a webcam. We were chatting with a kid, and my friend, let's call him Z, sort of was all over me and my friend. He would lift our shirts and things in front of the cam and I was uncomfortable with it, but no matter what I did, he would not leave us alone. Then he'd try to cuddle with us in bed and it was awkward and I didn't really know how to approach the situation.
I should probably tell you that I've hooked up with this kid before, when I was single.
I'm not going to tell boyfriend about any of this, but I feel like I'm lying if I don't. Although, it's not necessarily lying if he doesn't ask. But I really don't know what to do. If boyfriend finds out about Z, we're done. I never really promoted any activities with Z or kissed him, but I still feel dirty.
ugh. I knew something like this would happen.
xoxo
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4 comments:
its hard, but keeping things like that open in a relationship is always good. it creates a more sturdy secure relationship. i would tell him. reassure him that your feelings are for him only, make him feel safe. but ya, i would tell him...
whoa girl thatz rough but seriousli thuh good thing iz that ur bf dont kno n wat he dont kno wont hurt him. KEEP IT SECRET KEEP IT SAFE. Just try 2 move 4ward n 4get it evr happned. R u gunna b fasting again soon?
I'll probably be fasting tomorrow.
It's boyfriends birthday on Tuesday and that means food :p
I'd say keep it secret unless there's ANY possibility he will find out on his own. Otherwise tell him in a way that makes sure he knows how gross and uncomfortable you found it.
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