holy. shit.
negative calorie list.
check it.
http://www.cabbage-soup-diet.com/ubb/Forum4/HTML/000298.html
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Wednesday, April 7, 2010
updates since march:
my parents started to notice I was losing weight, and "conveinently" spring break was coming up and they were planning a trip to California. they gave me the choice to stay behind, but once they noticed my "problem" they said I had to go for two weeks so they could monitor my eating. I tried my hardest to make it seem like I had no problem eating with everyone else. but I did still eat a lot less than everyone. I guess then they decided I was healthy and we came back after spring break. so I missed out on my spring break, gained weight, and now I have to start over. isn't that fabulous? no.
so like I said in an earlier post, I was going to come up with a diet of only certain foods. so I came up with a list while I was in California:
pickle products (i.e, DILL pickles, cucumbers, okra, etc.)
steamed rice (in moderation)
diet soda
water
veggies
I am not going to eat any other foods than this. unless it's a 25 cal or less food. then I'll add it. feel free to take this list as your own and change it however you'd like. but remember: low cal foods only! preferably foods you don't like much. that way you'll eat less of it or get bored of eating it.
xoxo
my parents started to notice I was losing weight, and "conveinently" spring break was coming up and they were planning a trip to California. they gave me the choice to stay behind, but once they noticed my "problem" they said I had to go for two weeks so they could monitor my eating. I tried my hardest to make it seem like I had no problem eating with everyone else. but I did still eat a lot less than everyone. I guess then they decided I was healthy and we came back after spring break. so I missed out on my spring break, gained weight, and now I have to start over. isn't that fabulous? no.
so like I said in an earlier post, I was going to come up with a diet of only certain foods. so I came up with a list while I was in California:
pickle products (i.e, DILL pickles, cucumbers, okra, etc.)
steamed rice (in moderation)
diet soda
water
veggies
I am not going to eat any other foods than this. unless it's a 25 cal or less food. then I'll add it. feel free to take this list as your own and change it however you'd like. but remember: low cal foods only! preferably foods you don't like much. that way you'll eat less of it or get bored of eating it.
xoxo
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Saturday, March 6, 2010
I'm fat. I'm fat. I'm fat. I'm fat.
I'm not losing weight fast enough. I'm going to start running probably tomorrow. and I'm going to create myself a food diet. I'm not sure what foods I'm going to restrict myself to but it'll only be two foods, and water. probably a couple foods that are really low in calories and that I don't like very much. that way I won't want to eat them and when I do, it won't be much. when I decide on my new diet, I'll post it.
I'm not losing weight fast enough. I'm going to start running probably tomorrow. and I'm going to create myself a food diet. I'm not sure what foods I'm going to restrict myself to but it'll only be two foods, and water. probably a couple foods that are really low in calories and that I don't like very much. that way I won't want to eat them and when I do, it won't be much. when I decide on my new diet, I'll post it.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
it's been nothing but junk food lately. digusting. my solution? a five day fast and staying away from home. home is where all of the binge foods are. if im at home for a long period of time, I give into the temptation of the ever so taunting cookies and juice and all that.
but in other news, I've rekindled my relationship with my best friend. the past few months have been hard for us, but the bumpy road is over and were moving on. the past is the past and were closer than ever. finally.
I didn't realize how much I missed her until we started talking and joking like we used to. she brings happiness in my life. takes my mind off all other stresses and makes me focus on the now moment. which, usually I do. except when it comes to weight. I'm always anticipating the future. after my fast, how much thinner will I be?what will it take to get even thinner? questions like that run through my mind constantly. but it's all worth it in the end.
but in other news, I've rekindled my relationship with my best friend. the past few months have been hard for us, but the bumpy road is over and were moving on. the past is the past and were closer than ever. finally.
I didn't realize how much I missed her until we started talking and joking like we used to. she brings happiness in my life. takes my mind off all other stresses and makes me focus on the now moment. which, usually I do. except when it comes to weight. I'm always anticipating the future. after my fast, how much thinner will I be?what will it take to get even thinner? questions like that run through my mind constantly. but it's all worth it in the end.
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