These past four days have been hell.
I completely gave up on myself and binged four days in a row. FOUR DAYS.
That may not be that much to you, but that's a whole 3-4 pounds I could've lost. but instead I let food get the best of me.
I'm starting over.
I'm not going to eat anymore than 200 cals a day for the next two weeks.
Probabaly more than that. I need to be punished. I need to learn that food is thy enemy. I'm only going to eat to stay alive.
food = fat.
fat = ugly.
and no one wants to be ugly.
The content here will be triggering! It is at your own risk if you choose to continue reading. This blog's focus is eating disorders, weight loss, calorie restriction, and diets. I am not recovered or in recovery, so I suggest that if you are or you're sensitive to any of these topics, leave this blog.
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