so I'm in love,

and I'm letting my guard down.
my boyfriend and I had a very emotional talk last night. we talked for hours, and he broke my heart in so many ways. He told me he feels like I don't care about him or trust him enough to let him in. I never tell anyone what I'm thinking or how I feel and this guy walks into my life and wants me to share everything with him. that's not gonna happen that easily. it's so hard for me to open up to people because I'm afraid they'll turn around and use it against me. I've had that happen way too many times. but he reassured me and promised me and cried over me. The last time he cried was over his dad when he was eight. I never imagined I'd have such an impact on someone. I'm nothing special. I'm just as broken as he is. He says he wants to know everything about me. He promises he'll make me so happy one day, I'll never have to cry again. and I just might believe him. He's made me the happiest I've been in a very long time. I don't even remember the last time I was this happy with my life. I may make some really stupid decisions when I'm with him, but I don't regret a thing. He wears his heart on his sleeve and I only wish I could do that. He doesn't know anything about me. I tell him I don't think my thoughts and feelings are important enough to share. He says he doesn't care. He just wants to hear me talk and wants to listen. We understand each other. I only hope this lasts.