All these birthdays are ruining my restriction. I'm expected to eat around my family. Luckily, they don't say much if I don't eat much. So I had a little pasta salad and a veggie burger. Not too bad, I guess. I'd have liked it to be less , though. I really need to get my groove back. It's like a never ending cycle of lose weight, binge, lose weight, binge. And that little tiny binge fucks everything up!
I hate you, food. I truly hate you.
And I've been so damn bored, I've gone out of my mind and filling up time by eating. UGH. I resisted cake though :) I'm very proud. Although, I never really have liked cake. Or sweets. So it's not that hard. While everyone stuffs their belly's fat, I starve mine thin.
Anyways, I'm going home next weekend and I'd like to be a lot thinner before I go home. I have about a week. I feel stupid though, because I'M the own holding myself back from being skinny. It doesn't make sense. I want it so badly, yet the only thing standing in my way, is me.
God, I'm tired of these wars in my head.
I just want to be happy...and thin :)
xoxo
The content here will be triggering! It is at your own risk if you choose to continue reading. This blog's focus is eating disorders, weight loss, calorie restriction, and diets. I am not recovered or in recovery, so I suggest that if you are or you're sensitive to any of these topics, leave this blog.
6 comments:
Hey girl!
Those outfits are cute right :D! I just HAD to post those pics.. love 'm..!
The give me all sorts of inspiration, i love those tiny skirts and tshirts.. kinda vintage.. soo cool
I wanna wear those! :P But cant wear it yet.. TO fat :D!
LOVE, anna
the = they..
:D sorry!
i am in the same boat as you sweets. this post is my life story lol.
dont worry tho, we will prevail.
we will be thin.
stay strong luv
madzaq
I'm glad there's someone going throught the same shit :p
We'll conquer our fat together and head down Skinny street :)
and, anna, I've bought lots of rhompers and things, but I need to lose weight to look good in them, so they're my thinspo ;)
love you guys!
xoxo
yep, i fell in the same hole as you and im trying to climb out of it no matter how muddy and gross i get! im tired of binging/purging. so far i havent binged yet today and im hoping to keep it that way! if i do, ive climed out! hope you climb out with me! =)
stay strong hun you'll get it back, i know you will!
thanks, babydoll<3
I wish you the best!
xoxo
Post a Comment