so since I get yelled at for everytime I eat, I'm just gonna stop eating at home. but then they notice when I don't eat, and get all concerned. WTF! make up your god damn mind. but I don't fucking care what they say to me, or about me. I'm fucking done. I'm not staying home anymore and if I am home, I'm staying in my room. maybe then they'll feel bad for the things they say. maybe then they'll miss me. I can honestly say I hate where I live.
In other news, I'm finally talking to my long lost father. I've never met him, or my older sister and now I'm talking to them on facebook. He wants me to go to Idaho with them for thanksgiving. ah. thanksgiving. the worst holiday. my close family is used to me not eating. But I can't just refuse food at a strangers thanksgiving. And I don't know if I'm ready to meet that side of the family yet. I'd feel so uncomfortable and out of place.
But I haven't decided what I want to do yet.
wish me luck.
xoxo
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4 comments:
Good Luck!
Take your time- it could be a bit overwhelming meeting everyone for the first time, maybe take baby steps?
Hope things get better at home xxx
yeah my family is crazy too int hat way
well tahts great that ur talking to them but its ultimatly up to u when u meet them take it in baby steps
Stats are pretty much exactly the same. But your a size 3?! lucky, I'm a size 7 :(
im sorry girl I hope all works out well and the way you want it to!
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