day 2: success.
I managed to avoid all eating except for dinner with the family. I had to eat then. but other than that, fasting day two was easier and more successful. I had more self control today than I ever had in my life.
I also think a big help was that I'm trying to prove something to myself and that I can't give up on my inspiration-seekers. I have to stay strong for not only me, but everyone else looking for their thinspiration.
xoxo
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Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Monday, April 12, 2010
day one: semi-successful.
if my boyfriend hadn't of found out about my fasting, it wouldve been successful. I only had one meal and i'm pretty sure it was under 600 cals. so not bad for the first day. I wouldve liked to not eat at all. but he's not going to let that happen. he's getting in the way of what I want. I love him, but god damn.
if my boyfriend hadn't of found out about my fasting, it wouldve been successful. I only had one meal and i'm pretty sure it was under 600 cals. so not bad for the first day. I wouldve liked to not eat at all. but he's not going to let that happen. he's getting in the way of what I want. I love him, but god damn.
so my new diet method starts tomorrow. either that or I'm just gonna straight up fast. I'm tired of waiting around on other people to rework my life.
I also was thinking about having a food diary. I've never had one before so I don't really know how it works.
anyways, I'm probably going to do a two week fast. maybe make it a month. but if anyone would like to join, you're welcome to. you can post, anonymously, about each day that we go through.
and I was also thinking of creating a facebook fan page. but I'm still contemplating on how well that would work out.
anywho, love you dolls!
xoxo
I also was thinking about having a food diary. I've never had one before so I don't really know how it works.
anyways, I'm probably going to do a two week fast. maybe make it a month. but if anyone would like to join, you're welcome to. you can post, anonymously, about each day that we go through.
and I was also thinking of creating a facebook fan page. but I'm still contemplating on how well that would work out.
anywho, love you dolls!
xoxo
Sunday, April 11, 2010
I had plans to start fasting on Saturday. of course, that didn't go well. my boyfriends dad came into town and took us out to eat for every meal. I've eaten three times a day for the past three days. and not just lightly eating, but eating so much to the point of puking. I've managed to skip a couple meals, but not enough. luckily, he's leaving tomorrow night. so I still have this whole week to start fasting.
I've never eaten so much in my life. help!
I've never eaten so much in my life. help!
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
updates since march:
my parents started to notice I was losing weight, and "conveinently" spring break was coming up and they were planning a trip to California. they gave me the choice to stay behind, but once they noticed my "problem" they said I had to go for two weeks so they could monitor my eating. I tried my hardest to make it seem like I had no problem eating with everyone else. but I did still eat a lot less than everyone. I guess then they decided I was healthy and we came back after spring break. so I missed out on my spring break, gained weight, and now I have to start over. isn't that fabulous? no.
so like I said in an earlier post, I was going to come up with a diet of only certain foods. so I came up with a list while I was in California:
pickle products (i.e, DILL pickles, cucumbers, okra, etc.)
steamed rice (in moderation)
diet soda
water
veggies
I am not going to eat any other foods than this. unless it's a 25 cal or less food. then I'll add it. feel free to take this list as your own and change it however you'd like. but remember: low cal foods only! preferably foods you don't like much. that way you'll eat less of it or get bored of eating it.
xoxo
my parents started to notice I was losing weight, and "conveinently" spring break was coming up and they were planning a trip to California. they gave me the choice to stay behind, but once they noticed my "problem" they said I had to go for two weeks so they could monitor my eating. I tried my hardest to make it seem like I had no problem eating with everyone else. but I did still eat a lot less than everyone. I guess then they decided I was healthy and we came back after spring break. so I missed out on my spring break, gained weight, and now I have to start over. isn't that fabulous? no.
so like I said in an earlier post, I was going to come up with a diet of only certain foods. so I came up with a list while I was in California:
pickle products (i.e, DILL pickles, cucumbers, okra, etc.)
steamed rice (in moderation)
diet soda
water
veggies
I am not going to eat any other foods than this. unless it's a 25 cal or less food. then I'll add it. feel free to take this list as your own and change it however you'd like. but remember: low cal foods only! preferably foods you don't like much. that way you'll eat less of it or get bored of eating it.
xoxo
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